When I started this Blog, this was just about meeting Sam – I had no idea that less than two months later I will be writing about six other guides? Light speed ahead, LET’S GO! 🙂 And everybody reading this is with me on this journey as I figure things out, learn and explore.
I love my guides, I am so happy they are here for me, thank you, thank you, thank you.
I talked to Teri – she is so cool – Teri are you smiling (hehe, I know she’ll read this at some point, lol – love you). She is so awesome, what would I do without her – I hope that some day I can help even just one person as much as she has and is helping me. Anyway, I was explaining to her how much it helped to go to the medium for reassurance that what I am seeing is accurate – or that my “thoughts” are accurate. Sometimes it just helps!
Last time I was logging that I wasn’t sure how many guides were around, etc – well, there are six – I had a “hunch” but didn’t trust it. I met some of them by myself and some I was told about but I haven’t seen yet very clearly.
1. Viktor – he is the highest guide – I met him first (after Sam) when I asked who is the highest guide available for a connection with me
2. Mike – I met him second, thick lips
3. Asian-looking guide – he reminded me of Buddha, I need to name him, I keep thinking of an “O” as a name, to be determined – the medium confirmed that Mike and the third guide are two separate entities
4. Mask lady – she wasn’t present at my session…the medium said she might not be available at the time, only 5 guides were present
5. A woman guide, a nun she described the medium – she said not in a religious way – she was helping me with patience and she had a message for me – I am not sure if the nun is my mask guide/woman I previously saw but I didn’t think so. to be determined
6. A doctor – the medium described him as stocky(er) and I never met him before our session – he had a message for me
Sam is also always with me and also my nanny, grandma and someone on my mom’s side that I wasn’t able to recognize.
Because I have been dealing with a lot of personal human baggage last week, a lot of my session revolved around my husband and my decision to make it work, etc. My passed loved ones brought the whole thing up and they wanted to talk about it, something that I thought was going to be a greeting became a “we have to talk about your husband’s X” really fast. 😉 I guess they know I understand they’re always with me so it was different – even though I didn’t specifically try to communicate with them before, I have told them I knew they were here and I smell them sometimes, I know they are around. I think for that reason they felt the need to “dive right into it” – I will not go into my own personal human battles as that is my human life to sort out and those are my decisions to make, it is still personal; however, I do want to get into the GUIDES in this blog!
VIKTOR is the ring leader – I say that because I often see a “circle of love” with a V in the middle, kind of like a superhero logo so I imagine Viktor represented by the V symbol. 🙂 Sometimes right in the beginning I get a letter and I then know who is there. The medium said that Viktor is the highest guide I have and he is a very evolved being. Viktor is my white bearded guide, piercing blue eyes and philosopher robe – when V speaks, you listen (that’s how I feel, in a very loving way – I want to listen!). The medium said he was also communicating through my grandma and nanny so I am not sure if the husband talk was also in part related to the guides, etc. I imagine it doesn’t make it very easy for us to communicate when I am dealing with human upsets and my mind is clouded but it is part of my human condition and I am lucky I have Teri to help me work through them – goodness – don’t you just wish they’d tell you what to do, lol? 🙂 I have decided to let it be for now and relax – fretting about any issue is never the solution – be still – I intend to be still. I am going to take more time for myself and relax.
The nun guide had a message for me and that was to clean my closets – I was a bit confused as I didn’t understand but she was adamant that I needed to clean the closets – so I did but I didn’t “find” anything. I am not re-examining the message and I am thinking it can be one of two things (possibly) – either the hole in the ceiling in the garage that I was told has mold in it and it can be interpreted as an attic closet or the actual attic (nothing in there that i know of), or who knows. I will keep at it until it’ll make more sense.
She (the nun guide) also said I needed to be more patient with myself. She said I needed to PRACTICE MORE, which is so true and she said I expected everything to come to me immediately instead of give it time and practice. I agree – I keep wanting to find out everything – all of it NOW 🙂 I need to relax and take my time to practice a few times a week and not rush things but also spend time being quiet and allowing myself to be open. She has a lot of love for me and she has been with me through many lifetimes. At this point my medium said I was an old soul – fun – should have a lot of “movies” to see then when I go for past life regressions. 😉 For now, however, my goal is to work on this life and on my connection with spirit.
The guides also told me to take the nature trip I wanted to take for my birthday – I want to rent a quiet cabin and be out in the mountains relaxing – they thought that was a good idea and I feel a pull to go there and be relaxed and off of the “i” devices of all kinds. 🙂 I am also trying to add a translate button to this blog but I haven’t been successful – I do own a marketing company so I could have my coding guru do it for me but can I have a co-worker read this? hehe
Then, the doctor guide wanted to talk to me – he said I needed to start eating better and loose weight – how funny – who would have thought I would get so many ACTUAL messages. He was very clear in his message and he said that if I didn’t stop the carb-sugar eating habits I would develop an auto-immune disease. YIKES – I clearly don’t want that so I will be starting a clean eating program asap. I also have been having a clear thought that I needed to eat better but I usually brush it off as “I am having so much fun eating all the crap” – but I don’t believe I will be having fun with an auto-immune disease and I feel like not paying attention to the warning is my choice but it would be a pretty foolish choice. I want to be able to use my body for a long time and in order to help other people in this lifetime I need to be healthy and strong. I think sickness would consume my thoughts and efforts and I would have less time for my spiritual journey – we create our future. We have a choice – I will choose to be healthy so fresh and nutritious food, here I come…again. The difference is that I need to make a life choice not just a choice for right now.
I also have a clear feeling that this doctor can work through me, if allowed (to be developed and expanded on later – I read about that in “Opening to Channel”); however, I think for now he is trying to help me help myself. I need to take care of my body – we all need to take care of our bodies and eat clean.
Eating clean is not easy for me, I have to really try BUT I will reprogram my brain to change that programming, I can totally do it (with Teri’s help)- I plan to use EFT for old habits and to program new ones, guided weight-loss meditations, exercise (walking and weights) and natural supplements to help me in my weight loss efforts. Since my appointment, I have seen the stethoscope too so the doctor guide is around me. I will ask them all for guidance and strength – I need to do this for myself, my daughter, family and for my spiritual journey. A clean body will support my efforts and will make it even easier for me to communicate with spirit. I’d like to note here (because I feel it) how emotional I sometimes get talking about them – I just feel SO MUCH LOVE, I don’t know how to describe it other than it is beautiful and it brings tears of joy to my eyes – who are these amazing beings who care so much about me? I love them so much and I am so thankful for their help. All of my thoughts about this have been messages I have been ignoring. TIME TO WAKE UP!!!
I have been having a rocky relationship with my mom – I judged her a lot in the past, we have very different views on many things but my journey and the spirits are giving me a different perspective and I feel so much love for her and so much acceptance. And the same goes for all my family members – I feel a deeper love for everybody, like the intensity just went up a notch for no reason – I appreciate them all more, I see all their good more, I like them more, I want to hug them more…it is funny – awesome. I still have the silly human thoughts and issues but overall my love feels more intense in a cool way.
So, my five out of six guides were all there – last time I saw the medium only Viktor and Sam (angel) were present. My journey is moving so fast, I sometimes find it unbelievable! I wonder how many people would read this and think I need to be hospitalized lol – I’d probably think I needed help should some of the things I am going through now have happened two years ago – the way I went primal feeling like I was going to explode out of my body and then the entire world, might not be considered “normal” behavior but guess what – the raging anger I felt made me realize my power – OMG I could move mountains. Bless Teri for being so helpful in explaining some of that and helping me understand my power. I am not crazy, I am waking up – look around – how beautiful, how much love and how much we can do – it is up to us. I choose to pay more attention – I choose to stop ignoring “my thoughts” and choose the path I want. I’ll be making adjustments as I go. 🙂
I have a TEAM OF GUIDES here to help me, to support me, to guide me – and I have my angel and I have my passed family members, they are all around to help – having the love of all of these amazing beings is overwhelming. I am on my path…goal: practice more. They told me I needed to practice so I will try to pay more attention and ask questions during the day too and maybe I will practice with readings for a couple of loved family members to see what happens. I will also ask questions at night and see what happens (remembering I cannot read for myself because my own human feelings and desires get in the way!).
One thing: the medium said she felt (at the time) that I wan’t going to have another child and I freaked in my mind – this is not true (I thought). It might be the true future she could see at that moment in time because of what I was thinking about my relationship and wanting to wait, work on it first, etc BUT that being said, knowing that is a possibility for one of my future versions, I intend to turn that around PRONTO so time to get busy!!! Let’s prove this “creating your future” business right now. I 100% believe there are multiple versions of the future and the final “reality” depends on what we choose – I think I have a very small window of opportunity for a kid and if I wait like I was going to (and work on other things first) I will miss it and it is irreversible for my body – it is what I feel – and I don’t want that – SO, let’s test my theory. At that place in time, I was going to have one kid – let’s see what happens with her prediction next time I go based on my actions from now until next month – stay tuned. Time to play with my power of intention, creativity and love.
And should I not have another child – my spiritual journey will go even faster – either way, I will be working with spirit and growing, learning, practicing – very exciting. I want to make it clear that for some reason, regardless of what will happen, I feel it is ok. I never felt that way in my life 100%, it always took a bit more work with Teri or they would be upsetting before Teri (should we refer to my life as BT and AT?) hehe – the thought that I can do anything and create anything yet not resist or be too upset about things that happen to be a certain way. I can’t explain what is happening any other way than issues seem less important, “problems” are easier to work through and love is more intense. And I am very excited for all of us. I have to translate this blog! 🙂
I feel like there was so much more I wanted to say – excuse blabbing and mistakes – I am not a writer, these are just my thoughts.