Yes, I know – things are getting “weird” and my entourage is expanding 🙂 Here I was thinking my next blog will be about my spirit guide and whoops, I now met someone else.
BTW, all my posts are in chronological order of how I experience things, change my views and opinions, etc (in hope soon I’ll have less views and opinions and I can just observe). So, I met someone else last night – it is not Sam, it is not the new bearded guide – he was a new guide (I assume) and I just saw his face, he had thick lips, that is what I remember lol. I was asking a question of Sam or the new bearded guide and someone else stepped up.
The way I saw him is very interesting, I see eyes first (very intense), light and lights, various other mumbo jumbo things I can’t really discern (sometimes it feels like a traveling through a cosmic soup, I really don’t know how to explain it – I don’t mean I am traveling, I am very much present in my body, just my vision) and then I get a face in and out, not clear and not static but certain things stay with me – like the full lips.
I was thinking to myself what am I supposed to do with all….this. The first message I got was a pool and people diving in elegantly from all angles and I felt a clear message to “dive in!” – I repeated that thought, ok, I am supposed to dive in, got it.
I woke up this morning e-mailing Teri and thinking “this blog is not about me, this is so much more” – it all is so much more. Not that what I do is not important for myself, clearly it is super cool…but lately I get the idea that this will be more than a journal and at the end of the day it doesn’t matter if it can help one person or millions because it can help someone, I know it can.
Again, I need to go back to my masterpieces and draw – I saw many things and I can’t really remember much more than light, a star-like rotating light shape “thingie,” the fact that I am supposed to “dive in,” accept, not doubt and question myself.
So, now that I am aware of Sam and my two guides, we will see how we will communicate and what I can log, based on what I can remember – I know there were more things in the middle of the night that I wanted to remember and log but I really can’t remember them right now, and my life with family and business doesn’t allow me to wake up and write – especially since my husband doesn’t really know I am doing this…explaining that I need an hour of piece right when I wake up might happen but it needs to happen gradually.
I saw a door at some point, a door made of light, and I thought to myself open it, go through and I did and then there was a “helping hand”…there was someone there, a light, and I couldn’t see any form, the only form I saw was an extended hand/limb connected to the light and I grabbed it. The information I remember is very fragmented and the order is all mixed up today so I cannot surely say I know exactly what happened – but I know it was someone new and it felt loving and helpful.
Throughout this past month I keep seeing the outline of a window – the “window of opportunity” I call it, it is the first thing that comes to mind – to be explored.
I am trying to work on my fear – I have been reading too many conspiracy theories and alien take overs, and souls wanting to physically live on earth during the transformation ETC to the max – I need to relax and just be – just “do my thing”, read my affirmation, I am only allowing spirits of the light around me and I am sure they are here to guide and help me but my human mind can’t help but try to make some negative stories about it – so I am trying to EFT and do sedona to release any negative thoughts – I am in control, they are not powerful, I just sometimes notice the thought and have to remind myself I am “crazy” – the reason I put things in quotation marks is because usually some words have a negative connotation but I find crazy perfectly fine. 🙂
We were watching 20/20 last night and my husband started asking questions – I ended up telling him about my teenage experience with seeing the “truth” as it was happening – I was very reserved and gentle about it and he seems ok…he is definitely opening and asking questions. Not sure I am ready just now to reveal how truly out there I am stepping but as he asks questions and inquires I will share what feels right with him. He has a good sense of humor and sometimes it is nice to get a chuckle out of an otherwise serious subject for me.
It is super exciting and I find myself having a billion questions so I need to remember to center and breathe. Teri posted something today about awakening and feeling special that I absolutely loved…you can see it shared on the facebook page or here is the text, shared via Teri Ritchie:
Don’t think I don’t think I am special, of course I am special BUT I am not above anybody, I don’t feel “better” or “special” because I am having these experiences and others are not – I am reading time and time again that we are all the same, all one, we all have the power to be awake, we just need to believe it – all I am doing is believing that I don’t need to hide and be afraid anymore. I was talking to my mom and I was trying to explain some things to her and help her get on the spiritual cleansing journey and as I was talking I realized that some things are so hard to explain and I have even more love for teachers like Teri of http://www.accesstheedge.com that dedicate their lives to helping us realize who we are and what we can do – we have a choice. We want the end result and a magic pill of how to get there, most of the time, rather that trying to do the ground work of spiritual cleansing – I know from personal experience (present tense and recent) how hard to is to dedicate the time to do 5 minutes of EFT, knowing it is effective – change is not easy but it is doable and I am willing to keep trying.
So, now I have two guides I need names for – my bearded guide and my full lips guide – I will ask for names and we will see what happens.
I also have a new found sense of urgency – not in a bad way – but it makes more sense why I needed to document my experiences and my initial thought that I’d wait 20 years until I don’t have small kids, or am older, etc vanished because I do feel the time is now. I need to document all my experiences, now.
I also had a thought of trying to find a meeting with other people trying to channel or connect BUT then I had a clear message (at least for now) that meeting all those people is not helpful to others who need help because those already believe and are on their awakening path. I think I am supposed to just do my own thing the best I know how, with the help of my support group, in hopes that all of us combined can help as many as possible, interested ones, of course, by using the examples of what we are working on or experiencing.
I will try to remember more things about last night and if I do, I’ll update the post.