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My support & visions of love

It has been a little while, a lot has happened, here’s an update.

Going to bed one night I saw an angel “coming down” – it was a ball of golden light at first but as it got closer I could see it had a body and wings, it was really beautiful. So majestic, so graceful, so pure and so LIGHT. I then saw the face of my nun guide, who I have named Mary because she reminds me of Virgin Mary paintings, with light literally shining out of her heart, it is beyond amazing, no words can describe the love, I get emotional every time I think about it – I was blessed with such a vision.

Screen shot 2013-09-27 at 12.39.32 PMIt looked like this but without any details, just silhouette.

I then saw a beautiful young male face – it looked like a gorgeous statue, perfect symmetry, and it went in and out with my nun guide Mary – she had the light star coming out of her chest and the garment on her head – but the images kept going in and out between Mary and the beautiful male face I named David because it reminds me of David, the beautiful statue – he has curly hair 🙂

I asked in my head of they had a message for me and I saw a cup of black coffee and then I was staring to see other things but I don’t remember – I wanted to pretend that I didn’t understand if they meant drink or don’t drink lol – but I knew what they meant so I gave up coffee immediately. What’s the point in higher guidance if I will ignore it? I decided they know best and I want more guidance so I will follow their lead. it has been 3 weeks with no coffee now and I am proud of myself – did I mention I used to go crazy on sugar and heavy cream and also buy those starbucks caramel frapucinos? yes! That was me – I switched to green tea and any kind of tea I want, really, and I feel much better and I lost 5 pounds! (I am also walking 3 days a week)

Another night, I saw a flickering bright light out of the corner of my eye at the head of the bed the entire time I was reading my affirmation – it was bright and flickering brighter – it was beautiful. I think it was my guide, Mary, she has been coming over to see me a lot because when I closed my eye I could see her.

Screen shot 2013-09-27 at 12.35.51 PMThis is the closest thing I can find to what I saw – is beautiful and she has a thing on her head like in the picture. Also, I could see her heart and there was insane blinding love golden light coming out of it. Not fire, love light. Her hands were open, sore of like the photo of the angel about and she was giving the love/light. It was beautiful, peaceful and it felt amazing.

Cool clairvoyant vs 3d vision experience:

This was honestly the coolest thing because I could see the difference in vision with my eyes vs my third eye – it was so amazing – hard to explain but I will try. One morning I was  in my quiet state as I was waking up and I could see my guide Mary coming down, I was facing – “looking” at a corner in my room and with my eyes closed I could see her faintly. I opened my eyes for a faint second and in 3d I could see a fog-like mass floating in the corner, up in the room corner, it was strange, I was aware of the room and of the limitations but they were not as “hard” as usual – the 3d field seemed more matrix-like than normal when I am awake. Anyway, opening my eyes while doing this was SUPER HARD, it took great effort and concentration to open them even for a second but I did about 5 times or so and back and forth I could see a presence physically in 3d and in my mind, they looked different but they were the same thing, it was super interesting, never experienced anything like it before.

Back to my last post – who said “hi”? 🙂

I went to my awesome and trusted medium and it was one of the first things we went over – who said hi? It was Viktor, one of my highest guides. He said I was very frazzled in the kitchen scrambling and it was the first time I heard him, he wanted to help me calm down and let me know everything will be ok. He said he has said my name and hi many times, it just happened to be the first time I heard him. Wow, amazing. I haven’t heard anything since – I’ve wondered many times what a good time would be, what the best thing to say would be and honestly I have no answer. I am grateful that I have the help although how can I talk about this to people, now I hear voices, sure that will go over well hehe. Well, the good news is that I hear the voice of my high level guide and not some “random stuff”

My doctor guide was also there and since I have been calling him Doc, he gave the medium a name, Patrick, and a shamrock for Irish so we have a name.

Guides update:

Sam – my angel and guide, also past life connection

Screen shot 2013-09-27 at 12.52.10 PMViktor – a very high level guide, he is helping me a lot and he is with me a lot. I imagine him looking similar to this – at least his projection or what I got. He has beautiful blue piercing eyes and a white beard – a lot more groomed than the photo I think – shorter hair and beard, groomed.

He is older and very wise and I get the impression that when he talks, you listen.

He wears greek-like garments like a greek or roman philosopher, sort of.

Mike – thick lips, I haven’t seen him lately

Buddha – or Bud, my funny Asian-looking guide

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Mask lady – I haven’t seen her since, I still don’t have her confirmed

Patrick  – my doctor Irish guide

Mary – my sweet, loving, nun guide

Screen shot 2013-09-27 at 1.02.13 PMDavid – my beautiful curly hair guide

Also, I have been calling on the angels and archangels and the runners. I called on angels to help me with work, finding things I need, etc. I called on my runners (local helper spirits) to help me with parking, finding things in the house, etc and when I do I am soooo excited and I thank them. thank you 🙂

My guide Mary warned me about the attic – it was at a weird time and I didn’t know what she was referring to. Well, I finally scheduled a service to come out and guess what! I have rats in my attic, I would have never known and by the time you know it is too late and too much money. Now, I can at least investigate my options, get them out and seal the holes.

Patrick, my doctor guide, warned me about my health, eating, etc – I have started walking, eating healthier and stopped the coffee craze. I never thought my eating can be a health issue, I am overweight but it was always more of an image thing for me. Now that it is a health matter, I am determined to get back into shape. I also listened to a webinar discussing how overweight people have their brain affected by the fat (this is a medical proven issue) and I thought “oh hell no” 😉 I am not putting my brain power and overall health in jeopardy and not be able to do the things I love for food, it is ridiculous. Patrick, the doc guide, said that if I continue on this path I’ll get an autoimmune disease – yep, the kind they don;t have medication for. How about let’s not do that and I am starting a healthy lifestyle right now – I am going to also buy a juicer because it just feels right and I LOVE juice!

Viktor also mentioned that I have been thinking about getting sexier and that it was a good idea. Yes it is 🙂 Vitality is important and when you feel great, your energy is up, etc. I am working on it and I am for the first time excited. I noticed I am craving fruits and veggies more and for some reason I am eating less red meat, just sounds heavy…also, my body is craving less food and if I eat too much then I am not hungry for dinner and I can get away with a protein bar. I did ask my guides to help me with hunger and what I crave and I honestly believe they have – thank you.

The latest guide I met, David, came through the other night and then I got a WAVE of information – it honestly looked like a wave, a burrito of stuff. Inside, I could see text, Images, thoughts, etc. I felt like I was receiving info thorough multiple channels but it was so much that I could make sense of it. I did get a couple of things in the moment because I remember thinking “HA!” but I forgot them – so I did think/transmit back “TMI” lol – just kidding. I did communicate it was too much for me to grasp but I am thankful and grateful to him for trying and I ask him to please try again and start slower. I am excited to see what he’s sending.

I asked my guides/Viktor when I saw Michele (the medium) if they want to channel and they said not by taking over my body/voice type of thing. they said they are channeling all the time through my written questions, thoughts, etc. I think the thoughts for me are the most powerful…I get thoughts all the time but I feel like they are the hardest to discern. When you hear things you know, you see things, you know…you think things, well…? So I am working on trusting my thoughts and practicing that.


One morning I was getting ready and I had the thought of talking to my nanny’s granddaughter. My nanny was grandma-age when she started working for our family and she had a 12 year old granddaughter and a grandson my age. I am still in touch with them as I loved my nanny as my own grandma and she is with me oftentimes now that she passed and now that I am more aware. LOVE HER. So, I get that thought and I think “sure, I haven’t talked to her in a while that’s why i am thinking of her”. then I thought what if my nanny wants to tell her something so thought what would it be? and my next thought was “work less, spend more time with your daughter.” I thought nah, now I am really going off the deep end, that is obvious, it is what I think about all of us: myself, my friends, etc. but then I thought, ok, what if I am not making it up? If I did talk to her what would I tell her….something that nobody else would know but her? and I instantly got the color “red” – “red, looking at red, something red, red coat, something red to buy, for daughter maybe, red.” At this point I thought ok…whatever. I will call her to talk to her but not about this and I let it go – until I saw Michelle (medium) and I had to ask, to indulge myself. I told her the story and she said “yes, yes, and yes” you are correct on all your thoughts but she also said that doesn’t mean you should go calling her and telling her you talk to her dead grandmother hehe. Teri told me that there are different ways of bringing things up like “I think about your grandma a lot and how much she loves us” or “I often feel like she is here sending us love” or whatever generic comments you can make without being specific on details. That seems right to me for now.

When I was at the medium she also gave me exercises and I practiced on her – she would ask me questions and I would make up an answer…and she validated the things I was making up, it was really trippy. I don’t know how else to describe it.


She had me concentrate on a pineapple with all its details, etc. Then, she asked me to think of the first thing that comes to mind about her morning and ladybug came to mind. I didn’t want to say it because, really? I am just making things up so I told her that and she encouraged me. When I said “ok, this is totally something i made up but just so you know it was a ladybug and it makes no sense” she said: “actually, when I walked to my car this morning a ladybug landed on my arm so you are not making it up!” And there you have it – we did that with some info about her mom, etc. It was crazy and it 100% felt like I am just making it up, I said whatever came to mind.

Three lady family members and I are doing spirit circles once a month and we had the first one, it was a lot of fun – we each took turns asking questions and the others said whatever came to mind, just to practice and have fun. My sister-in-law actually saw two of my guides there, my Buddha and my David guide together with her guide and some others, it was really cool. I need to work on meditation, focus, etc to better tune in to them.

What else? I need to blog more often! 🙂 it is hard to remember it all a month later and then you end up with a loooooong blog you don’t want to screen for typos. Thank you for reading, stay in touch and let’s keep on awakening.

Much love.

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The fun continues :)

Yes, I am talking about channeling, clairvoyance, clairaudience and everything in between – not a lot I can share because as you figure it out, this is all NEW to say the least; but, I can log what happened recently because it was an interesting experience and I think this is the groundwork to what’s to come.

Things are continuing to come up and also everything is changing so fast – I seem to jump from angels to guides (one by one), to aliens, to seeing written text (sentences at a time) to hearing a voice – things happen at a slow pace with time to “adjust” in between…yet so fast if put in perspective. I am constantly on my toes, I never know what’s going to happen. Once I seem to figure something out, everything changes and something NEW happens. I don’t know if just as like with the guides when they were introducing themselves one by one, I am being exposed to different things one by one, it is possible…

One night, while asleep at about 3 am, one of the laptops started sounding funny – you know the fan sound that a PC laptop makes? like it is going to take flight off the table? that sound! On and off, on and off – enough to wake me to my “present” state when I know whats happening but my eyes are still closed.

Screen shot 2013-09-04 at 4.59.57 PMI then started seeing one word…first blurry and then it started becoming more clear. I could read the word clearly but I don’r remember it now and I forgot it by the morning; however, what’s important is that it was a full word, not just one letter. I remember thinking yay, progress, I can see words now. It was very exciting, full words are definitely easier than letter by letter.

The image I am using is random, it just symbolizes one clear word while others are blurry, etc. It was really calm and clear and COOL.

Afterwards I started seeing a full sentence, black on white. It looked like a typed up sentence on a small piece of paper, just long enough for one sentence – kind of like the typed up clues you’d get in school. It was a two-line sentence, black on white – it was typed but it looked like a handwriting font, clear, not too “scripty”

Screen shot 2013-09-04 at 5.04.49 PMIt was blurry in the beginning but it started to become more and more clear. It wasn’t small, it was large in my “horizon” or my “movie screen” or whatever you want to call my third-eye vision. As it became more clear, it moved in the center of my vision and it came closer and I could clearly both see the text and the fact that there was more behind it – much more – like entire written pages not just a sentence.

As the sentence became clear, I read it in my mind to make sure they know I am reading it. I kept thinking: you need to remember this, you need to remember this, you need to remember this and I was 100% sure it was an easy task as it was a simple sentence; however, I didn’t remember the exact wording. I remember the message but not the wording exactly.

We are ready to share our message with the world now

That’s the gist of what the sentence read. I don’t remember the exact words or order, I really should have written it down immediately but I could see there is a full page behind it and I thought I might get to see that next so I didn’t want to open my eyes and lose the connection. I was really excited  – you can imagine if I was excited about one word, how excited I was about a full sentence…not to mention seeing there is more. So, I was trying hard to stay there and not change anything by trying to record what I read but I had a thought that it wasn’t time. I needed help because I need to record myself reading the text or have someone there to remember, etc. There was no way I could read a full page and remember when I can’t even remember one sentence! Even though I was trying to pay attention, the computer fan was still making noise which I found very distracting so I was asking them to please stop the noise but by the time that happened, the text went away too; however, I did have a clear message that it wasn’t time because I had no way to remember, etc.

I also saw a bunch of mathematical equations in the middle of a piece of paper – things I don’t understand. You have to know I am not a science person and I probably would not distinguish between physics, chemistry or mathematical equations, it is all greek to me. But I remember seeing them very clearly and I could read them for someone to write them down if I wasn’t in bed at 3 am, with my husband, where I couldn’t record on my phone either. Can you imagine? “Sorry for waking you up, honey, I just have to record this message I am receiving from my guides” – yeah! maybe one day, who knows…not quite there yet! 🙂 This equation sequence is important to remember because it comes up again in the dream – see below.

I then went back to sleep and I had an interesting dream.

In my dream, my guide (not sure which one) incarnated and they were here, with me and they had the papers I was supposed to read with them. They were trying to show me something, to share something with me, and we were looking for a quiet place to sit down and to that.

It was really interesting because the world looked grim and strange – I remember going in somewhere, trying to sit down and read these papers she (my guide was in a human female body) wanted me to read. Inside we sat down and the other people were acting very strange (to me). They were wearing some sort of perishable toilet paper clothes and without interacting with them I could tell that they were always fixing their clothes, caring about their clothes or worrying about them. They were also running around doing “stuff” but to me they were not doing anything important, just running around; however, they seemed very caught into this running in circles and they were all doing the same thing. They didn’t see or care about us, they were very oblivious to the surroundings and they kept running around like chickens with their heads cut off only caring about their clothes, sex and what they thought they were doing. It was super interesting and in hindsight a metaphor of our life here, if asleep or caught up in day-to-day life. We worry about what we wear, keep buying various things from clothes to other things we don’t really need, we run around busy busy busy in circles, we worry about everything and we ignore some of the spiritual things right in front of us. They chose to wear toilet paper yet were annoyed about it and fussed with it continuously. Is it “bad”? No, nothing is bad, it is what it is but it was interesting to observe and eye-opening.

I don’t want to wear toilet paper clothes and run in circles over and over again obsessing about nothing of importance!

I want to read those papers, I want to know more, I want to be with my guides as much as possible, I want to explore, I love adventure. The noise and distractions and having a hard time to sit down is also representative of the fact that I find it hard to find time to be quiet – this all happens at night, etc. I have a family with a toddler, husband, a busy young business, etc – life gets in the way; running in circles wearing toilet paper gets in the way 🙂

My guide and I finally decide this is it, we will ignore them and look at the papers – they didn’t seem to care or notice us anyway. I looked at the papers and there were multiple pages of text I had to read. I then noticed some formulas on one page and thought uh-oh! What’s that? That is not text and I don’t k now what it means.

Screen shot 2013-09-04 at 6.58.29 PMIt looked like equations, math “stuff” I don’t know, understand or know how to read or interpret. My guide knew exactly what I was thinking and she told me not to worry! They wrote that for me and they will give it to me written – she said I don’t need to try to understand, or make sense of it, or remember it, because it will be given to me.

That was good to know because I really could not make sense of it other than there were three lines of it and it felt like they all went together – like it was one long equation or problem solution.

When I woke up, I knew – I got the same message, two different ways! My guides are trying to tell me/us something, they have a message – of this, I have no doubt. I am excited and nervous at the same time – how do I find the perfect setting for me to read this and record it or write it? Is this what channeling is? Could they channel through me directly so I didn’t have to try to remember? How would that work? What should I do, etc. Questions galore!

I then got the clear thought that regardless of the above I needed to schedule monthly meetings with three family members who are also very spiritual and are working with their guides and the spirit world. We all decided to meet up once a month at the same time in the same place and talk about these things and try to channel and see what happens – maybe if I am with them I can relax and get a message they can remember or help me write down – worth trying. I did try the next day to lay down and use my recorder for half an hour but I didn’t see anything 🙂

Last night I know I saw something (text) but I can’t remember it; however, something happened a week ago that kind of derailed me from this subject: I HEARD SPIRIT.


“Hi,” he says, in a raspy male voice at 3 am in the morning while I am in a mountain cabin, in the dark, in the kitchen, getting milk for my daughter who could not sleep. Hi? I jumped out of my skin, literally, while getting a head to toe chill. I didn’t have time to react or explore because I was super freaked out and my daughter wasn’t well and I needed to be brave and just walk around in the dark and get her the milk. I wanted to shout for my husband so I had company… but honestly, what can he do and what can I tell him? “I want you here because I am afraid, I just heard a ghost?” hahaha – sure, that sounds quite sane, doesn’t it? I am sure there is a clinical diagnosis for people who “hear voices” and I don’t need to be considered crazy, this is just not mainstream right now but I know I am not crazy. This is real, as real as you and I…it will be less “coo-coo” in the years to come, I hope.

So who was it? Who said “hi”? Was it Sam, was it a dead relative, someone I knew or a random soul I don’t even know who lives at that cabin? OMG, who was it and WHY are they saying hi and how in the world can I hear them? Am I the only one who hears them? yikes, here we go again.

I don’t know who it was – I don’t have those answers yet. I will find out  – in the meantime, everybody thinks this is exciting because it is opening to clairaudience but it was freaky for me – anything new or unknown or “para-normal” is a bit scary the first time, just the scare of the unknown and the randomness of it! I didn’t expect it, who would? Would there be a better place or time or scenario for it? I have no idea…when is it a good time to hear a spirit for the first time, when you ask for it? Who knows? I just was taken by surprise.

So right when I thought he next thing I will experience will be more text, I get audio. What does that mean? I don’t know…same as with the guides, I kept seeing new ones every time but I think it is because they were introducing themselves and to them it is all continuous (time is not linear) even thought for me here there is time in-between my experiences, etc. Maybe just like with the guides, I am having a tune-up to all the senses one by one? I don’t know…possible. It does seem to me like I am jumping from one topic to another but this is how I am experiencing things – all is good, all is love, all is light.

I made the mistake of going to a “fortune teller” – yikes, I don’t think she was very good or evolved – she told me I have entities sucking my energy, some souls around me, etc but honestly I don’t think she got the big picture – the thought of hearing something to her was terrifying and “bad” so I think she was just “behind.” She also tried to get me to buy some “protective crystal”  – didn’t sound right.  I talked to both the medium and Teri and they both agreed that I don’t need anything outside of myself. I am powerful, I am in control, if I want something I can achieve it with the power of thought; consequently, my business is booming, changing direction and my right hand quit – everything happens for a reason and the ones that are not in congruency with my path will go away, it is what it is and how it should be.

I am very excited about all the new things and I am curious to see what’s next. We have our first sit down channel meeting next Tuesday – All of us are inexperienced and don’t know what we’re doing but we will do it every month and see what happens. I will keep you updated.

Everything I see now has a different meaning, all the author quotes read differently than before – I notice a lot of them had messages of light, higher purpose, etc, I never read (saw!) before. Pay attention to the quotes from famous authors, etc around you – you will see for yourself.

The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why – Mark Twain

I am in the process of finding out why – why did I choose to come here, now – what do I want to achieve, learn, do? I don’t remember, but I am trying to find out and I know I am on the right path – it feels right. I know there is MORE, I need to do more, help more, love more, live more. There must be a way I can help others, many others – someday, this will help someone. Until then I will keep relaxing, accepting and allowing.

Much love.