Meeting Sam

a spiritual journey


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A new encounter!

Yes, I know – things are getting “weird” and my entourage is expanding 🙂 Here I was thinking my next blog will be about my spirit guide and whoops, I now met someone else.

BTW, all my posts are in chronological order of how I experience things, change my views and opinions, etc (in hope soon I’ll have less views and opinions and I can just observe). So, I met someone else last night – it is not Sam, it is not the new bearded guide – he was a new guide (I assume) and I just saw his face, he had thick lips, that is what I remember lol. I was asking a question of Sam or the new bearded guide and someone else stepped up.

The way I saw him is very interesting, I see eyes first (very intense), light and lights, various other mumbo jumbo things I can’t really discern (sometimes it feels like a traveling through a cosmic soup, I really don’t know how to explain it – I don’t mean I am traveling, I am very much present in my body, just my vision) and then I get a face in and out, not clear and not static but certain things stay with me – like the full lips.

I was thinking to myself what am I supposed to do with all….this. The first message I got was a pool and people diving in elegantly from all angles and I felt a clear message to “dive in!” – I repeated that thought, ok, I am supposed to dive in, got it.

I woke up this morning e-mailing Teri and thinking “this blog is not about me, this is so much more” – it all is so much more. Not that what I do is not important for myself, clearly it is super cool…but lately I get the idea that this will be more than a journal and at the end of the day it doesn’t matter if it can help one person or millions because it can help someone, I know it can.

Again, I need to go back to my masterpieces and draw – I saw many things and I can’t really remember much more than light, a star-like rotating light shape “thingie,” the fact that I am supposed to “dive in,” accept, not doubt and question myself.

So, now that I am aware of Sam and my two guides, we will see how we will communicate and what I can log, based on what I can remember – I know there were more things in the middle of the night that I wanted to remember and log but I really can’t remember them right now, and my life with family and business doesn’t allow me to wake up and write – especially since my husband doesn’t really know I am doing this…explaining that I need an hour of piece right when I wake up might happen but it needs to happen gradually.

I saw a door at some point, a door made of light, and I thought to myself open it, go through and I did and then there was a “helping hand”…there was someone there, a light, and I couldn’t see any form, the only form I saw was an extended hand/limb connected to the light and I grabbed it. The information I remember is very fragmented and the order is all mixed up today so I cannot surely say I know exactly what happened – but I know it was someone new and it felt loving and helpful.

Throughout this past month I keep seeing the outline of a window – the “window of opportunity” I call it, it is the first thing that comes to mind – to be explored.

I am trying to work on my fear – I have been reading too many conspiracy theories and alien take overs, and souls wanting to physically live on earth during the transformation ETC to the max – I need to relax and just be – just “do my thing”, read my affirmation, I am only allowing spirits of the light around me and I am sure they are here to guide and help me but my human mind can’t help but try to make some negative stories about it – so I am trying to EFT and do sedona to release any negative thoughts – I am in control, they are not powerful, I just sometimes notice the thought and have to remind myself I am “crazy” – the reason I put things in quotation marks is because usually some words have a negative connotation but I find crazy perfectly fine. 🙂

We were watching 20/20 last night and my husband started asking questions – I ended up telling him about my teenage experience with seeing the “truth” as it was happening – I was very reserved and gentle about it and he seems ok…he is definitely opening and asking questions. Not sure I am ready just now to reveal how truly out there I am stepping but as he asks questions and inquires I will share what feels right with him. He has a good sense of humor and sometimes it is nice to get a chuckle out of an otherwise serious subject for me.

It is super exciting and I find myself having a billion questions so I need to remember to center and breathe. Teri posted something today about awakening and feeling special that I absolutely loved…you can see it shared on the facebook page or here is the text, shared via Teri Ritchie:

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Do not think that enlightenment is going to make you special—it’s not. If you feel special in any way, then enlightenment has not occurred. I meet a lot of people who think they are enlightened and awake simply because they have had a very moving spiritual experience. They wear their enlightenment on their sleeve like a badge of honor. They sit among friends and talk about how awake they are while sipping coffee at a cafe.The funny thing about enlightenment is that when it is authentic, there is no one to claim it. Enlightenment is very ordinary; it is nothing special. Rather than making you more special, it is going to make you less special. It plants you right in the center of a wonderful humility and innocence. Everyone else may or may not call you enlightened, but when you are enlightened the whole notion of enlightenment and someone who is enlightened is a big joke. I use the word enlightenment all the time—not to point you toward it but to point you beyond it. Do not get stuck in enlightenment.
-Adyashanti
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Don’t think I don’t think I am special, of course I am special BUT I am not above anybody, I don’t feel “better” or “special” because I am having these experiences and others are not – I am reading time and time again that we are all the same, all one, we all have the power to be awake, we just need to believe it – all I am doing is believing that I don’t need to hide and be afraid anymore. I was talking to my mom and I was trying to explain some things to her and help her get on the spiritual cleansing journey and as I was talking I realized that some things are so hard to explain and I have even more love for teachers like Teri of http://www.accesstheedge.com that dedicate their lives to helping us realize who we are and what we can do – we have a choice. We want the end result and a magic pill of how to get there, most of the time, rather that trying to do the ground work of spiritual cleansing – I know from personal experience (present tense and recent) how hard to is to dedicate the time to do 5 minutes of EFT, knowing it is effective – change is not easy but it is doable and I am willing to keep trying.

So, now I have two guides I need names for – my bearded guide and my full lips guide – I will ask for names and we will see what happens.

I also have a new found sense of urgency – not in a bad way – but it makes more sense why I needed to document my experiences and my initial thought that I’d wait 20 years until I don’t have small kids, or am older, etc vanished because I do feel the time is now. I need to document all my experiences, now.

I also had a thought of trying to find a meeting with other people trying to channel or connect BUT then I had a clear message (at least for now) that meeting all those people is not helpful to others who need help because those already believe and are on their awakening path. I think I am supposed to just do my own thing the best I know how, with the help of my support group, in hopes that all of us combined can help as many as possible, interested ones, of course, by using the examples of what we are working on or experiencing.

I will try to remember more things about last night and if I do, I’ll update the post.

Much love.


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How I met my first spirit guide

Oh my goodness, I am so excited!!! Why is our human condition so silly??? 🙂 haha

I met my higher spirit guide two weeks ago and sort-of talked my way out of it – I say sort of because I did get the message he was the guide I have been asking Sam to introduce me to…but then one thing led to another and I interpreted his bearded face (I only saw the face) as an author who also does seminars and I thought I am meant to go do the seminar – I semi-talked myself out of it. I also got a name but I forgot it…I am sure I’ll get it again as we are just starting.

Here’s the story:  I was going to bed and after my affirmation I was saying hi to Sam and I thought “Sam, is there a higher guide who wants to talk to me? I want to be connected to the highest guide available who can help in my development.” I am interesting in channeling, helping, learning and everything in between – this is carving to be such a FUN journey, I am loving it and I feel so blessed and so much love – it is hard to really describe it.

Just like with all my other “visions” I am not sure if this happened immediately or after a little sleep or when – but, I saw the face of an older man, white beard, kind face, blue eyes (I didn’t actually see them blue but I feel they’re blue). I also got a name earlier that night but I forgot it :/

I don’t think I really knew what was happening.

Days later, I saw a photo of an author who also does seminars and helps people connect to guides and I thought OMG this is the guy I saw (because he had white beard and blue eyes) so I must try to take a seminar. In the meantime, Teri and I talked, I told her about him, we talked and we left it at…lets just see how you feel in a little bit and keep examining yourself as Teri knew this will go away, I didn’t; however, after our chat the need to go see this man went away. In the beginning I wanted to go hug him, I was feeling such attraction to the bearded man I saw in my “dream”

A couple of weeks went by and I forgot about it – I had been busy writing this blog, living my life, etc.

Today, I went to see the medium again as I wanted to fill her in on all my contacts and I wanted to chat about contacting my guide, etc. As I go through my stories and feelings, I get to the bearded face  – she asks me for a thorough description and then says “honey, that sounds like a high guide.” I said how do you know…and she said “because I am a medium” lol…I am thinking ok….so she follows “he is actually standing right behind you and Sam stepped back, still to your side on the right but further back and your bearded guide is right here with you.” I am still getting chills writing this just as I did then – I was overwhelmed by so much love and joy and other feelings I have no words for. So much happiness, like meeting your parents for the first time times infinity.

The medium tuned in and described my guide exactly as I saw him and said he is in a robe…I instantly remembered I thought of someone in a toga before during one night so that made perfect sense…he reminds me of a roman/greek/robe of some sort and he is just wise and loving and warm and huggable (virtually).

She told me he is telling her about things I have been worrying and thinking about lately like my 2 year old being challenging and me not having enough patience, like not being sure if I should have another kid since I seem to loose my patience with this one already and I want to be a good mom, etc. My guide was saying “don’t worry” and I can’t tell you how refreshing it was to know that both him and Sam are here with me to help me, he said he has been helping me with my patience. Just knowing I have someone trying to help me be more patient, have more compassion and understanding and have a better relationship with my daughter is beyond amazing. I am so grateful – I am so lucky. The guide also transmitted that my daughter is an old soul and very smart…I know that, I’ve always known that…this little girl is truly special.

How unbelievable is this: I connected to my guide with Sam’s help all by myself without going to any fancy seminars, knowing how to meditate or doing anything special. I am not saying I didn’t have any help…everything and everybody in my path helped get me to where I am today and I am so excited and happy for my unbelievable journey.

The medium then asked me if I wanted to do hypnosis and balance my chakras and meet the guide more – duh! 😉 of course I do. So we started – we did a guided chakra meditation and then she had me sit down with my guide and in doing so and in evaluating my experience I got the most important message: I don’t need to make it too hard and too complicated and I need to stop over-thinking it.

I was thinking that all my interaction with spirit needs to be in clear images because I did see images before. So, when asked to picture one or another I thought I wasn’t able to do it just because I didn’t go in some trance to see clear movie-like images. The truth is, my imagination and thinking of something is enough. The message I got today though thoughts and realization are that I need to stop over-thinking things, trust what I see, trust the thought I have about something I see as the truth, trust that my imagination is good enough and trust that my guide has made a connection – I cannot say enough how much love and positive emotion I have…I am so happy and excited.

I now realize that the universes image from my “images” post is actually something given to me by my guide and it does have a lot of meaning – he was showing me how much there is that I can’t even wrap my mind around – he was showing me the “big picture”

I also have had waves of information that I don’t really recall but I remember thinking whoa and then – puff – gone. I think it was just a lot and maybe too fast, I might have missed it but he knows that and we will keep working on our connection – I am so happy to have this connection, I feel a sense of responsibility to log it in, just like I did before. I see the image of calligraphy I had before with the urge to write this blog differently – it is possible that an older human experience thinks of writing as calligraphy whereas we only type 🙂

I am going back and forth between this being my journey and this being a blog someone will use as helpful information – I don’t know at this point if my guide wants to use this to send messages (BTW as I wrote this I got a nudge through my seat, lol!) but if he does I will certainly log everything I experience as I love documenting it for myself, for my kids, for others – for whoever can find help and comfort in it. I know I do!

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The below I felt like saying and the second two lines are lyrics from a song that came on my ipod as i was writing the first two lines (andrea bocelli) that I just wrote down

Things are changing now, the world is changing – more of us have to try to help others be aware, be awake, be present to the truth. Know the truth, speak the truth, live the truth – love and acceptance, love for all, endless love.

We were born to shine, all of us here, because we believe – don’t give up, keep trying. Like stars across the sky, we were born to shine and to succeed, you have to succeed – and you will succeed!

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Here we go again – I start every post with a paragraph and where does the babbling go…back to my message. I need to trust myself – I need to not doubt my ability, my connection, my power, my love. This is it – I always knew something was “off,” something more was there – this is it, I have found it, I am waking up to my true self and it is beautiful – I am beautiful, I am so beautiful, I am love. I have so much love to give, I feel like it is radiating out of my body, I need to give and spread love and light. I am so happy and I cannot wait to relax, close my eyes and send love to both Sam and my new guide. Well, they’re both new to me even if Sam has been around since birth…I just met him “formally” and I still have questions about our life together and I plan to go for a past life regression at the medium eventually but until then I really feel the need to establish a better connection with my guide and keep following the path I am on without doubting it and making it fit a mold or an idea – I am trying to go with it and see where it takes me – so far I have felt nothing shy of excellent and balanced, happy, loved, helped, etc. I am feeling better, even.

Interrupted by a call and lost it for now – time to stop 🙂 I will log in my next experience when time comes.

Much love.