Meeting Sam

a spiritual journey

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The fun continues :)

Yes, I am talking about channeling, clairvoyance, clairaudience and everything in between – not a lot I can share because as you figure it out, this is all NEW to say the least; but, I can log what happened recently because it was an interesting experience and I think this is the groundwork to what’s to come.

Things are continuing to come up and also everything is changing so fast – I seem to jump from angels to guides (one by one), to aliens, to seeing written text (sentences at a time) to hearing a voice – things happen at a slow pace with time to “adjust” in between…yet so fast if put in perspective. I am constantly on my toes, I never know what’s going to happen. Once I seem to figure something out, everything changes and something NEW happens. I don’t know if just as like with the guides when they were introducing themselves one by one, I am being exposed to different things one by one, it is possible…

One night, while asleep at about 3 am, one of the laptops started sounding funny – you know the fan sound that a PC laptop makes? like it is going to take flight off the table? that sound! On and off, on and off – enough to wake me to my “present” state when I know whats happening but my eyes are still closed.

Screen shot 2013-09-04 at 4.59.57 PMI then started seeing one word…first blurry and then it started becoming more clear. I could read the word clearly but I don’r remember it now and I forgot it by the morning; however, what’s important is that it was a full word, not just one letter. I remember thinking yay, progress, I can see words now. It was very exciting, full words are definitely easier than letter by letter.

The image I am using is random, it just symbolizes one clear word while others are blurry, etc. It was really calm and clear and COOL.

Afterwards I started seeing a full sentence, black on white. It looked like a typed up sentence on a small piece of paper, just long enough for one sentence – kind of like the typed up clues you’d get in school. It was a two-line sentence, black on white – it was typed but it looked like a handwriting font, clear, not too “scripty”

Screen shot 2013-09-04 at 5.04.49 PMIt was blurry in the beginning but it started to become more and more clear. It wasn’t small, it was large in my “horizon” or my “movie screen” or whatever you want to call my third-eye vision. As it became more clear, it moved in the center of my vision and it came closer and I could clearly both see the text and the fact that there was more behind it – much more – like entire written pages not just a sentence.

As the sentence became clear, I read it in my mind to make sure they know I am reading it. I kept thinking: you need to remember this, you need to remember this, you need to remember this and I was 100% sure it was an easy task as it was a simple sentence; however, I didn’t remember the exact wording. I remember the message but not the wording exactly.

We are ready to share our message with the world now

That’s the gist of what the sentence read. I don’t remember the exact words or order, I really should have written it down immediately but I could see there is a full page behind it and I thought I might get to see that next so I didn’t want to open my eyes and lose the connection. I was really excited  – you can imagine if I was excited about one word, how excited I was about a full sentence…not to mention seeing there is more. So, I was trying hard to stay there and not change anything by trying to record what I read but I had a thought that it wasn’t time. I needed help because I need to record myself reading the text or have someone there to remember, etc. There was no way I could read a full page and remember when I can’t even remember one sentence! Even though I was trying to pay attention, the computer fan was still making noise which I found very distracting so I was asking them to please stop the noise but by the time that happened, the text went away too; however, I did have a clear message that it wasn’t time because I had no way to remember, etc.

I also saw a bunch of mathematical equations in the middle of a piece of paper – things I don’t understand. You have to know I am not a science person and I probably would not distinguish between physics, chemistry or mathematical equations, it is all greek to me. But I remember seeing them very clearly and I could read them for someone to write them down if I wasn’t in bed at 3 am, with my husband, where I couldn’t record on my phone either. Can you imagine? “Sorry for waking you up, honey, I just have to record this message I am receiving from my guides” – yeah! maybe one day, who knows…not quite there yet! 🙂 This equation sequence is important to remember because it comes up again in the dream – see below.

I then went back to sleep and I had an interesting dream.

In my dream, my guide (not sure which one) incarnated and they were here, with me and they had the papers I was supposed to read with them. They were trying to show me something, to share something with me, and we were looking for a quiet place to sit down and to that.

It was really interesting because the world looked grim and strange – I remember going in somewhere, trying to sit down and read these papers she (my guide was in a human female body) wanted me to read. Inside we sat down and the other people were acting very strange (to me). They were wearing some sort of perishable toilet paper clothes and without interacting with them I could tell that they were always fixing their clothes, caring about their clothes or worrying about them. They were also running around doing “stuff” but to me they were not doing anything important, just running around; however, they seemed very caught into this running in circles and they were all doing the same thing. They didn’t see or care about us, they were very oblivious to the surroundings and they kept running around like chickens with their heads cut off only caring about their clothes, sex and what they thought they were doing. It was super interesting and in hindsight a metaphor of our life here, if asleep or caught up in day-to-day life. We worry about what we wear, keep buying various things from clothes to other things we don’t really need, we run around busy busy busy in circles, we worry about everything and we ignore some of the spiritual things right in front of us. They chose to wear toilet paper yet were annoyed about it and fussed with it continuously. Is it “bad”? No, nothing is bad, it is what it is but it was interesting to observe and eye-opening.

I don’t want to wear toilet paper clothes and run in circles over and over again obsessing about nothing of importance!

I want to read those papers, I want to know more, I want to be with my guides as much as possible, I want to explore, I love adventure. The noise and distractions and having a hard time to sit down is also representative of the fact that I find it hard to find time to be quiet – this all happens at night, etc. I have a family with a toddler, husband, a busy young business, etc – life gets in the way; running in circles wearing toilet paper gets in the way 🙂

My guide and I finally decide this is it, we will ignore them and look at the papers – they didn’t seem to care or notice us anyway. I looked at the papers and there were multiple pages of text I had to read. I then noticed some formulas on one page and thought uh-oh! What’s that? That is not text and I don’t k now what it means.

Screen shot 2013-09-04 at 6.58.29 PMIt looked like equations, math “stuff” I don’t know, understand or know how to read or interpret. My guide knew exactly what I was thinking and she told me not to worry! They wrote that for me and they will give it to me written – she said I don’t need to try to understand, or make sense of it, or remember it, because it will be given to me.

That was good to know because I really could not make sense of it other than there were three lines of it and it felt like they all went together – like it was one long equation or problem solution.

When I woke up, I knew – I got the same message, two different ways! My guides are trying to tell me/us something, they have a message – of this, I have no doubt. I am excited and nervous at the same time – how do I find the perfect setting for me to read this and record it or write it? Is this what channeling is? Could they channel through me directly so I didn’t have to try to remember? How would that work? What should I do, etc. Questions galore!

I then got the clear thought that regardless of the above I needed to schedule monthly meetings with three family members who are also very spiritual and are working with their guides and the spirit world. We all decided to meet up once a month at the same time in the same place and talk about these things and try to channel and see what happens – maybe if I am with them I can relax and get a message they can remember or help me write down – worth trying. I did try the next day to lay down and use my recorder for half an hour but I didn’t see anything 🙂

Last night I know I saw something (text) but I can’t remember it; however, something happened a week ago that kind of derailed me from this subject: I HEARD SPIRIT.


“Hi,” he says, in a raspy male voice at 3 am in the morning while I am in a mountain cabin, in the dark, in the kitchen, getting milk for my daughter who could not sleep. Hi? I jumped out of my skin, literally, while getting a head to toe chill. I didn’t have time to react or explore because I was super freaked out and my daughter wasn’t well and I needed to be brave and just walk around in the dark and get her the milk. I wanted to shout for my husband so I had company… but honestly, what can he do and what can I tell him? “I want you here because I am afraid, I just heard a ghost?” hahaha – sure, that sounds quite sane, doesn’t it? I am sure there is a clinical diagnosis for people who “hear voices” and I don’t need to be considered crazy, this is just not mainstream right now but I know I am not crazy. This is real, as real as you and I…it will be less “coo-coo” in the years to come, I hope.

So who was it? Who said “hi”? Was it Sam, was it a dead relative, someone I knew or a random soul I don’t even know who lives at that cabin? OMG, who was it and WHY are they saying hi and how in the world can I hear them? Am I the only one who hears them? yikes, here we go again.

I don’t know who it was – I don’t have those answers yet. I will find out  – in the meantime, everybody thinks this is exciting because it is opening to clairaudience but it was freaky for me – anything new or unknown or “para-normal” is a bit scary the first time, just the scare of the unknown and the randomness of it! I didn’t expect it, who would? Would there be a better place or time or scenario for it? I have no idea…when is it a good time to hear a spirit for the first time, when you ask for it? Who knows? I just was taken by surprise.

So right when I thought he next thing I will experience will be more text, I get audio. What does that mean? I don’t know…same as with the guides, I kept seeing new ones every time but I think it is because they were introducing themselves and to them it is all continuous (time is not linear) even thought for me here there is time in-between my experiences, etc. Maybe just like with the guides, I am having a tune-up to all the senses one by one? I don’t know…possible. It does seem to me like I am jumping from one topic to another but this is how I am experiencing things – all is good, all is love, all is light.

I made the mistake of going to a “fortune teller” – yikes, I don’t think she was very good or evolved – she told me I have entities sucking my energy, some souls around me, etc but honestly I don’t think she got the big picture – the thought of hearing something to her was terrifying and “bad” so I think she was just “behind.” She also tried to get me to buy some “protective crystal”  – didn’t sound right.  I talked to both the medium and Teri and they both agreed that I don’t need anything outside of myself. I am powerful, I am in control, if I want something I can achieve it with the power of thought; consequently, my business is booming, changing direction and my right hand quit – everything happens for a reason and the ones that are not in congruency with my path will go away, it is what it is and how it should be.

I am very excited about all the new things and I am curious to see what’s next. We have our first sit down channel meeting next Tuesday – All of us are inexperienced and don’t know what we’re doing but we will do it every month and see what happens. I will keep you updated.

Everything I see now has a different meaning, all the author quotes read differently than before – I notice a lot of them had messages of light, higher purpose, etc, I never read (saw!) before. Pay attention to the quotes from famous authors, etc around you – you will see for yourself.

The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why – Mark Twain

I am in the process of finding out why – why did I choose to come here, now – what do I want to achieve, learn, do? I don’t remember, but I am trying to find out and I know I am on the right path – it feels right. I know there is MORE, I need to do more, help more, love more, live more. There must be a way I can help others, many others – someday, this will help someone. Until then I will keep relaxing, accepting and allowing.

Much love.

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And then, there were six

When I started this Blog, this was just about meeting Sam – I had no idea that less than two months later I will be writing about six other guides? Light speed ahead, LET’S GO! 🙂 And everybody reading this is with me on this journey as I figure things out, learn and explore.

I love my guides, I am so happy they are here for me, thank you, thank you, thank you.

I talked to Teri – she is so cool – Teri are you smiling (hehe, I know she’ll read this at some point, lol – love you). She is so awesome, what would I do without her – I hope that some day I can help even just one person as much as she has and is helping me. Anyway, I was explaining to her how much it helped to go to the medium for reassurance that what I am seeing is accurate – or that my “thoughts” are accurate. Sometimes it just helps!

Last time I was logging that I wasn’t sure how many guides were around, etc – well, there are six – I had a “hunch” but didn’t trust it. I met some of them by myself and some I was told about but I haven’t seen yet very clearly.

1. Viktor – he is the highest guide – I met him first (after Sam) when I asked who is the highest guide available for a connection with me

2. Mike – I met him second, thick lips

3. Asian-looking guide – he reminded me of Buddha, I need to name him, I keep thinking of an “O” as a name, to be determined – the medium confirmed that Mike and the third guide are two separate entities

4. Mask lady – she wasn’t present at my session…the medium said she might not be available at the time, only 5 guides were present

5. A woman guide, a nun she described the medium – she said not in a religious way – she was helping me with patience and she had a message for me  – I am not sure if the nun is my mask guide/woman I previously saw but I didn’t think so. to be determined

6. A doctor – the medium described him as stocky(er) and I never met him before our session – he had a message for me

Sam is also always with me and also my nanny, grandma and someone on my mom’s side that I wasn’t able to recognize.

Because I have been dealing with a lot of personal human baggage last week, a lot of my session revolved around my husband and my decision to make it work, etc. My passed loved ones brought the whole thing up and they wanted to talk about it, something that I thought was going to be a greeting became a “we have to talk about your husband’s X” really fast. 😉 I guess they know I understand they’re always with me so it was different – even though I didn’t specifically try to communicate with them before, I have told them I knew they were here and I smell them sometimes, I know they are around. I think for that reason they felt the need to “dive right into it” – I will not go into my own personal human battles as that is my human life to sort out and those are my decisions to make, it is still personal; however, I do want to get into the GUIDES in this blog!

VIKTOR is the ring leader – I say that because I often see a “circle of love” with a V in the middle, kind of like a superhero logo so I imagine Viktor represented by the V symbol. 🙂 Sometimes right in the beginning I get a letter and I then know who is there. The medium said that Viktor is the highest guide I have and he is a very evolved being. Viktor is my white bearded guide, piercing blue eyes and philosopher robe – when V speaks, you listen (that’s how I feel, in a very loving way – I want to listen!). The medium said he was also communicating through my grandma and nanny so I am not sure if the husband talk was also in part related to the guides, etc. I imagine it doesn’t make it very easy for us to communicate when I am dealing with human upsets and my mind is clouded but it is part of my human condition and I am lucky I have Teri to help me work through them – goodness – don’t you just wish they’d tell you what to do, lol? 🙂 I have decided to let it be for now and relax – fretting about any issue is never the solution – be still – I intend to be still. I am going to take more time for myself and relax.

The nun guide had a message for me and that was to clean my closets – I was a bit confused as I didn’t understand but she was adamant that I needed to clean the closets – so I did but I didn’t “find” anything. I am not re-examining the message and I am thinking it can be one of two things (possibly) – either the hole in the ceiling in the garage that I was told has mold in it and it can be interpreted as an attic closet or the actual attic (nothing in there that i know of), or who knows. I will keep at it until it’ll make more sense.

She (the nun guide) also said I needed to be more patient with myself. She said I needed to PRACTICE MORE, which is so true and she said I expected everything to come to me immediately instead of give it time and practice. I agree – I keep wanting to find out everything – all of it NOW 🙂 I need to relax and take my time to practice a few times a week and not rush things but also spend time being quiet and allowing myself to be open. She has a lot of love for me and she has been with me through many lifetimes. At this point my medium said I was an old soul – fun – should have a lot of “movies” to see then when I go for past life regressions. 😉 For now, however, my goal is to work on this life and on my connection with spirit.

The guides also told me to take the nature trip I wanted to take for my birthday – I want to rent a quiet cabin and be out in the mountains relaxing – they thought that was a good idea and I feel a pull to go there and be relaxed and off of the “i” devices of all kinds. 🙂 I am also trying to add a translate button to this blog but I haven’t been successful – I do own a marketing company so I could have my coding guru do it for me but can I have a co-worker read this? hehe

Then, the doctor guide wanted to talk to me – he said I needed to start eating better and loose weight – how funny – who would have thought I would get so many ACTUAL messages. He was very clear in his message and he said that if I didn’t stop the carb-sugar eating habits I would develop an auto-immune disease. YIKES – I clearly don’t want that so I will be starting a clean eating program asap. I also have been having a clear thought that I needed to eat better but I usually brush it off as “I am having so much fun eating all the crap” – but I don’t believe I will be having fun with an auto-immune disease and I feel like not paying attention to the warning is my choice but it would be a pretty foolish choice. I want to be able to use my body for a long time and in order to help other people in this lifetime I need to be healthy and strong. I think sickness would consume my thoughts and efforts and I would have less time for my spiritual journey – we create our future. We have a choice – I will choose to be healthy so fresh and nutritious food, here I come…again. The difference is that I need to make a life choice not just a choice for right now.

I also have a clear feeling that this doctor can work through me, if allowed (to be developed and expanded on later – I read about that in “Opening to Channel”); however, I think for now he is trying to help me help myself. I need to take care of my body – we all need to take care of our bodies and eat clean.

Eating clean is not easy for me, I have to really try  BUT I will reprogram my brain to change that programming, I can totally do it (with Teri’s help)- I plan to use EFT for old habits and to program new ones, guided weight-loss meditations, exercise (walking and weights) and natural supplements to help me in my weight loss efforts. Since my appointment, I have seen the stethoscope too so the doctor guide is around me. I will ask them all for guidance and strength – I need to do this for myself, my daughter, family and for my spiritual journey. A clean body will support my efforts and will make it even easier for me to communicate with spirit. I’d like to note here (because I feel it) how emotional I sometimes get talking about them – I just feel SO MUCH LOVE, I don’t know how to describe it other than it is beautiful and it brings tears of joy to my eyes – who are these amazing beings who care so much about me? I love them so much and I am so thankful for their help. All of my thoughts about this have been messages I have been ignoring. TIME TO WAKE UP!!!

I have been having a rocky relationship with my mom – I judged her a lot in the past, we have very different views on many things but my journey and the spirits are giving me a different perspective and I feel so much love for her and so much acceptance. And the same goes for all my family members – I feel a deeper love for everybody, like the intensity just went up a notch for no reason – I appreciate them all more, I see all their good more, I like them more, I want to hug them more…it is funny – awesome. I still have the silly human thoughts and issues but overall my love feels more intense in a cool way.

So, my five out of six guides were all there – last time I saw the medium only Viktor and Sam (angel) were present. My journey is moving so fast, I sometimes find it unbelievable! I wonder how many people would read this and think I need to be hospitalized lol – I’d probably think I needed help should some of the things I am going through now have happened two years ago – the way I went primal feeling like I was going to explode out of my body and then the entire world, might not be considered “normal” behavior but guess what – the raging anger I felt made me realize my power – OMG I could move mountains. Bless Teri for being so helpful in explaining some of that and helping me understand my power. I am not crazy, I am waking up – look around – how beautiful, how much love and how much we can do – it is up to us. I choose to pay more attention – I choose to stop ignoring “my thoughts” and choose the path I want. I’ll be making adjustments as I go. 🙂

I have a TEAM OF GUIDES here to help me, to support me, to guide me – and I have my angel and I have my passed family members, they are all around to help – having the love of all of these amazing beings is overwhelming. I am on my path…goal: practice more. They told me I needed to practice so I will try to pay more attention and ask questions during the day too and maybe I will practice with readings for a couple of loved family members to see what happens. I will also ask questions at night and see what happens (remembering I cannot read for myself because my own human feelings and desires get in the way!).

One thing: the medium said she felt (at the time) that I wan’t going to have another child and I freaked in my mind – this is not true (I thought). It might be the true future she could see at that moment in time because of what I was thinking about my relationship and wanting to wait, work on it first, etc BUT that being said, knowing that is a possibility for one of my future versions, I intend to turn that around PRONTO so time to get busy!!! Let’s prove this “creating your future” business right now. I 100% believe there are multiple versions of the future and the final “reality” depends on what we choose – I think I have a very small window of opportunity for a kid and if I wait like I was going to (and work on other things first) I will miss it and it is irreversible for my body – it is what I feel – and I don’t want that – SO, let’s test my theory. At that place in time, I was going to have one kid – let’s see what happens with her prediction next time I go based on my actions from now until next month – stay tuned. Time to play with my power of intention, creativity and love.

And should I not have another child – my spiritual journey will go even faster – either way, I will be working with spirit and growing, learning, practicing – very exciting. I want to make it clear that for some reason, regardless of what will happen, I feel it is ok. I never felt that way in my life 100%, it always took a bit more work with Teri or they would be upsetting before Teri (should we refer to my life as BT and AT?) hehe – the thought that I can do anything and create anything yet not resist or be too upset about things that happen to be a certain way. I can’t explain what is happening any other way than issues seem less important, “problems” are easier to work through and love is more intense. And I am very excited for all of us. I have to translate this blog! 🙂

I feel like there was so much more I wanted to say – excuse blabbing and mistakes – I am not a writer, these are just my thoughts.

Much love.